Hmm..
Maybe I’m over thinking this or making it into something that it’s not. But I’ve been doing a lot of thinking since we’ve been talking about getting a place together, just us, millions of thoughts are going through my head. When we first started talking, when we met, moving in together, getting our first apartment together.. talking about getting our first apartment with just me and you! When we first started talking, were you single? Cause you’ve talked to girls since we’ve been together, sending them flirty messages. I know you’ve talked to your ex since we’ve been together. I can’t even listen to Mike Posner anymore because of it. Plus, you’ve lied to me about the dating site, so how do I know you’re telling me the truth when you tell me you love me? And you told me if I would of moved in with you earlier than when I did then we would still be living in your old house.. I wasn’t ready to move in with you yet. And I told you that. Sometimes I think the only reason why you wanted to be with me is to stay in the house you were in. When we first met, I was nervous cause we talked all day and night. I was always talking to you; I felt like someone was actually interested in me. But I wonder if you just said those things because you wanted me to believe it. I fell harder and deeper for you more than you could ever know, because of what you said and what we did together. You made me feel on top of the world, like we were unstoppable. We grew closer and closer together, I felt like we were one. Once I seen that you were messaging other girls, telling them to come see you at work, giving them your number, and telling them the same things you told me. I felt worthless, like another girl in your life. Now, I feel like nothing to you but a play toy. I don’t want to be another girl to you, I want to be your only girl.. the one you want to be with. Not the one who you toy around with until you find something better. Do I not make you happy anymore? I don’t want you to lead me on because you don’t wanna hurt me. If you keep leading me on, it’s going to hurt more later. I just want to know what you want cause I can’t keep guessing and not getting it right. I thought I was what you wanted.. what you needed. I just want you to be honest with me, please. That’s all I’m asking for. I know I make mistakes sometimes, and I’m sorry. I’m human. You wanna know why I’m so excited to move? Not only are we getting out of this hell hole we live in, but it’s a new start for our life together, just us. If you want it, cause I know I do. This is a new step for us in our relationship. It just being me and you would mean the world to me. I just want us to start our lives together instead of feeling like I’m on the sideline. I love you more than anything in the world. There is no lie when I tell you I love you. I mean it with all of me. But do you feel the same for me?
